The mind is a strange thing, now I realize that I conveyed some "defense mechanisms". One of these mechanisms was a sort of compensation. Yes, I tried (and sometimes I still do) to compensate by being the best friend, the nicest person, the excellent student, the example employee, a God-feared citizen, in order to be accepted as Eddie Entropy. I was always yielding, always giving myself to everything and everybody. Now I think differently, now I know that the only person that I have to comply with is me, myself and my own. I was constantly diminishing my self-esteem and desperately seeking for approval just to be/feel part of, to belong to the ubdustrial scene.
Now I know that being Eddie Entropy is not a good or bad thing, it just is. Even more, I know now that as Eddie Entropy I have my rights. The right to ride high as the lowest of the low. I was brought up to feel all wrong about me. Problem is you ain't got no rights. See, you've been wrong since the day you were born baby.
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